problemmms

So I have gotten myself in some sort of mess. I have to find out how to break things off with the guy i am talking to right now while keeping our friendship in tact. I also have a new guy friend that I am very scared that I might get to attached after a while but I really like talking to him. They say that guys and girls cant be friends because it usually ends up that one falls for the other or some other catastrophy that ends the friendship. So you can understand my relunctance to start friendship with the opposite gender. on top of all this im still interested in this guy that i was talking to a couple of months back. He didnt want a girlfriend at the time and now..idk. but he doesn really talk that much so I have to initiate most conversation which I can do but I never know what he is thinking and I dont want to annoy him so...greatttt stuff right.

Okay to say that I am bad at relationships would happen to be the understatement of the year! I have a big Scarlett Ohara problem, for those of you who have not read Gone with the Wind this means that I want what i cant have and once I get it I dont want it anymore. So you can imagine that the guys in my life never last very long(I call it my 2 week rule). Im not clueless to this problem and i dont have any parental issues or any of those other issues that emotionally distant people tell their therapist they have. I simply cant seem to keep interest in a guy for very long. My friends and I have concluded that I love the thrill of the chase, and as accurate as that is you will be suprised to know that I have actually fallin in love through all my wacked  hairbrained chases.  The longest relationship I have ever been in lasted 2 months which turned into one of the best friendships I ever had(until he moved and turned into a jerk), but even after he moved we talked and he came to visit me and I was hooked. Of course through that all i had other guys and infatuations and at one time i had an infatuation so mind blowing that I thought I was in love. Now back to my pessimism I have recently been talking to someone for going on 2 months and though its comfortable Im pretty sure its not going anywhere, and that I am only sticking in it because I want to prove to myself i can. i dont feel any spark, and we were friends beforehand so conversation is not a problem. I just dont see a future for it that i will actually develop overfriendly feelings for him. Oh and back to the guy i was in love with we had a big falling out after I realized that he was more important to me than i was to him and i have not contacted him in 3 months(this is a big thing). So here I am in a partial relationship i see going nowhere my heart on the mend and to top it all off Im pretty sure Im going to end up an old maid if I cant find someone to keep me interested for a long period of time. So this is just another one of those things where I had to get some stuff off my mind and figured that i would just put it on my venting and rambling page. I dont know what I want at this point maybe my standards are just really high and noone can make me see them clearly, but why should i lower my standards when someone that has it all might be out there...?