Okay to say that I am bad at relationships would happen to be the understatement of the year! I have a big Scarlett Ohara problem, for those of you who have not read Gone with the Wind this means that I want what i cant have and once I get it I dont want it anymore. So you can imagine that the guys in my life never last very long(I call it my 2 week rule). Im not clueless to this problem and i dont have any parental issues or any of those other issues that emotionally distant people tell their therapist they have. I simply cant seem to keep interest in a guy for very long. My friends and I have concluded that I love the thrill of the chase, and as accurate as that is you will be suprised to know that I have actually fallin in love through all my wacked  hairbrained chases.  The longest relationship I have ever been in lasted 2 months which turned into one of the best friendships I ever had(until he moved and turned into a jerk), but even after he moved we talked and he came to visit me and I was hooked. Of course through that all i had other guys and infatuations and at one time i had an infatuation so mind blowing that I thought I was in love. Now back to my pessimism I have recently been talking to someone for going on 2 months and though its comfortable Im pretty sure its not going anywhere, and that I am only sticking in it because I want to prove to myself i can. i dont feel any spark, and we were friends beforehand so conversation is not a problem. I just dont see a future for it that i will actually develop overfriendly feelings for him. Oh and back to the guy i was in love with we had a big falling out after I realized that he was more important to me than i was to him and i have not contacted him in 3 months(this is a big thing). So here I am in a partial relationship i see going nowhere my heart on the mend and to top it all off Im pretty sure Im going to end up an old maid if I cant find someone to keep me interested for a long period of time. So this is just another one of those things where I had to get some stuff off my mind and figured that i would just put it on my venting and rambling page. I dont know what I want at this point maybe my standards are just really high and noone can make me see them clearly, but why should i lower my standards when someone that has it all might be out there...?